Having One Of ‘Those’ Days
She said, “Where are you?”
I said, “Home.”
She said, “Where are you in your home and what are you wearing?”
I said, “In bed in my pj's”
She said, “Get up and go on a walk and do something!”
Apparently when you are struggling with sadness and depression it’s frowned upon to still be in pj's around 11am... My friend knows me well. I won’t go in to all the details of what triggered this round of struggle… and believe it or not, some of what triggered it is actually G.O.O.D stuff going on--But that’s a whole other blog post about self sabotage and doubt I need to write sometime…
I wanted to focus more on how I get through or at least try to get through these down days.
Here is my action plan for today:
--First, I have to allow myself to feel whatever I am feeling. If I shame myself for struggling, it just adds to the struggle. I have found that to be true in all instances in my life. I get to be Dani, whatever that means in the moment is allowed.
--I call a friend. This morning I called a friend who is hilarious. Find and cling to those friendships you can be real and honest with.
—Go on a walk. And now that I am telling you to go on a walk when you struggle, I will do that after I post this blog. Promise.
—I will meditate. I will lay down on the floor for 5 minutes. I must confess sometimes 5 minutes feels like 50 but it’s so worth it most days. I close my eyes and breathe in for 5 seconds. Hold it for 5 seconds and breathe out for 5 seconds. And try not to think about anything specific but concentrate on the breath. It really helps for calming my anxiety at times. And it’s amazing how much it helps with ‘being still’.
Psalm 46:10 “He says, “Be still, and know that I am God”
I will write more about my thoughts and beliefs about meditation in the future…But I guarantee you Jesus meditated.
—I will do the 'next right thing’…all day long. I will continue to put one foot in front of the other and NOT allow the beast of sadness to run or rule my life.
The ‘next right thing’ is different for all of us. Today my 'next right thing' has to do with prayer, business and laundry… Clean clothes makes the world a better place. At least in my little world.
God bless you all! It’s good to have freedom and permission to feel and be exactly where we are. It’s also good to be reminded over and over again, that we will NOT be stuck in these emotional dips forever! As ‘they' say: "This too shall pass”—I don’t know who ‘they’ are, but ’they’ are right!
Daily Grace to you.
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